Oh
To Be Noticed!
By Pauline Barclay
It was the fourth time Sue had walked past
the car showroom. Each time she lingered a few moments longer, peering through
the crystal-clear glass at the beautiful car: bright red, sleek and deliciously
sexy. What she would give to open the driver’s door, slip into the soft leather
seat and imagine she was cruising through the English countryside with the wind
in her hair and the warm summer sun kissing her face. She had never experienced
the exhilaration she imagined came with driving an open top sports car, but she
was certain she would enjoy every moment, given the opportunity.
Spying
her reflection in the showroom window she smiled at the slim woman gazing back
at her. Michael had said she would never stick to a diet long enough to lose weight,
she winced as she recalled his hurtful words. Michael was tall with a light
frame and, unlike her, weight would not stick to him if it was super glued to
his bones. By contrast, weight had shadowed her ever since she’d had the
children and that was over twenty years ago. And whilst she had played mother,
housekeeper, part time worker and loving wife, Michael had climbed the
corporate ladder with regular promotions, turning him into a confident and
successful man. Her years at home had had the opposite effect. Instead of
feeling the success of bringing up two well-adjusted children, she’d felt lost
and worthless. Embarking on her diet had had the most amazing effect on her
body and, equally on her confidence. For the first time in years she felt alive
and vibrant, but the downside was that Michael was too wrapped up in business
to see the real effort she had made. She wondered if her husband had noticed
anything because she was now six stone lighter and wearing a size twelve outfit.
Even to her own critical eye she looked ten years younger. Surely, he could see
all of this, too? But instead of feeling jubilant at her success, she was saddened
at Michael’s indifference.
There must be something I can do, she
thought, as her gaze raked over the car in the showroom, and like a bulb
lighting up a dark room, she saw the answer staring her in the face. Just
thinking about the idea had a giggle rising in her throat. There was no doubt
in her mind that Michael would certainly notice her if she roared up the drive
behind the wheel of this flirty little motor. ‘I can dream,’ she said in a
hushed whisper, and as the words slipped through her glossy lips the clock
tower, opposite the showroom, chimed one.
‘Oh
my goodness!’ she cried, realising she was half an hour late for lunch with her
friend, Liz. With reluctance, Sue pulled her gaze away from the car that had
been her source of distraction and set off down the road, her indulgent dream
melting away as she pictured the stern look on Liz’s face at her tardiness.
Sue
and Liz met on the last Friday of every month for lunch and had done for over
ten years. The time and venue never
varied: 12.30 precisely in Shadows, a small restaurant that looked no different
today as it had the first Friday they had pushed open the heavy glazed door. Change
was not something her friend, Liz, indulged in.
Turning
the corner into Dove Street, Sue’s steps were arrested as she saw Michael slip
into the driver’s seat of his, silver, Mercedes. She raised her hand and waved
and was about to call out when he sped off down the road. Dropping her hand
down to her side, she felt a flush of embarrassment at her exuberant behavior
as amused faces smiled as they hurried past. She frowned, Michael had her believing that life
at the office was filled with back-to-back meetings ensconced in a stuffy boardroom.
Now as she stood in the middle of the pavement, Sue watched as the Mercedes’ brake
lights flicked red before the car disappeared around the corner. She gritted
her teeth certain he had seen her. Maybe I
do need to do something breathtaking for him to notice me, she thought,
resurrecting the picture of the little sports car, her smile returning.
Knowing
she was late, Sue hurried along the tree-lined avenue and now all she could see
in her mind’s eye was a fuming Liz sitting at their usual table quaffing wine
whilst tapping her fingers impatiently on the table cloth. With every step her anxiety
was replaced with amusement as she thought about the monotonous and predictable
lunch she was busting a gut to get to. Suddenly, she let out a loud chuckle. For
once, she didn’t care if anyone on the pavement heard her outcry, because the
new Sue was not only slimmer, but a little less timid. She had worked on both
these areas and was determined not to let a late lunch spoil months of
determination. Let her fume, she thought,
and slowed her pace.
Liz,
three years Sue’s junior, had celebrated her fortieth birthday the previous
year and since she had married her wealthy husband fifteen years earlier, she
had never turned her hand to a day’s work. Even the household chores were
efficiently dealt with by their daily. And, with no offspring, Sue
marveled at how Liz filled her days. Unlike her own life which was constantly
on call with a part time job and the children, even if they were grown up. How
they were still friends she had no idea; chalk and cheese came to mind.
Standing
outside Shadows, Sue took a deep breath and pushed the heavy door open. With a
new confidence she strode into the dimly lit restaurant and immediately spied
Liz sitting at their usual table. Splashing a smile across her face, she finger
waved at her friend and braced herself for a reprimand. She plonked down on the
chair opposite and shook her head. 'Liz, I’m so sorry to be late, but you would
never believe...'
'Whoa!
Stop there,’ Liz said in a friendly voice, and at the same time pushed a large
glass of white wine towards her. ‘It's not the end of the world, it happens
from time to time,’ Liz added, picking up her own drink which held barely a few
drops. Liz reached over clinked glasses and said, ‘Cheers me dears!’
Shocked
at Liz’s laid back reaction, Sue suddenly lost the power of speech. Placing the
glass to her lips, she gulped at her wine. She had taken too much and tried to
hide the choke that was creeping up her throat from her greed. In an effort to
contain herself, she peered over the top of her glass at her friend and
wondered what was so different about Liz today. Normally she went into a great
sulk and refused to discuss anything until she had apologized, groveled, and
explained her lateness.
'Are
you all right?’ Sue asked, her tone cautious as she stared with wide open eyes
at Liz.
'Yes
I’m fine, but do take that look of surprise off your face, sweetie, it doesn't
suit you.’
Sweetie!
She had never been called that in all the years she had known Liz. In fact, she
had never been called sweetie by anyone. Heavens! If the person sitting
opposite didn’t look like Liz, she would swear she was sitting with a stranger.
Sue
stared at her. Oh my God, the woman must be heading for a breakdown. Had she
neglected her friend over the last few months and missed the vital signs? She had
been so preoccupied with her new self, her diet, clothes and, of course, trying
to get her husband to notice her.
‘Liz,
I am so sorry...’
Raising
her right hand, palm facing forward, Liz interrupted. 'I’m the one who’s sorry,
because I have something to tell you and I confess I should have told you
sooner. Indeed, much sooner,’ Liz gushed out, her face flushed. ‘I suppose I've
lived in my own little over protected cocoon and never thought that things
would change.’ Turning her attention from Sue, Liz gazed around the small restaurant.
‘Talking of change, do you mind if we eat somewhere different today? It's important
to me.’
'What? Yes, yes of course. If
that's what you want, but I don’t understand.’
'Don’t
worry,’ Liz reassured her, taking hold of the bottle and refilling Sue’s glass.
‘You know I’ve never been one for great changes in my life, just call me Miss
Predictable, but...’
Sue
raised her hand to disagree, but Liz ploughed on. ‘Don't answer sweetie, things
are about to change.’
From
the corner of her eye, Sue eyed the amount of wine Liz had poured and wondered
if she could manage any more. Already she was feeling light headed. ‘Are you
not joining me?’ she asked, trying to sound normal whilst noting Liz’s glass
was empty.
‘One
glass is more than enough for me; I’ll settle for water if you don’t mind.
Anyway, I need to keep a clear head with what I have to tell you.’
Water? Sue gasped as Liz filled a
tumbler from a jug she had not noticed until now. What next? she wondered.
'Finish
your wine and then we’ll set off to that exclusive restaurant on Main Avenue,’
Liz said, as if she was talking about popping into Macdonald’s rather than the
most expensive place in town.
'Don’t
you think it’s a bit pricey for lunch?’ Sue asked, wondering if she was strong
enough to take much more of this.
'Who’s
counting the cost? I'll be paying.' Sue shook her head, momentarily lost for
words, as Liz beckoned the waiter over. ‘Would you bring me the bill? I must apologize,
but we won’t be eating here today.’
Sue
bit down on her bottom lip as she took in the expression on the waiter’s face.
It seemed that not only was his face reflecting the shock from the words Liz
had uttered, having waited on them religiously for the past decade, but he appeared
to have lost the power of speech. With his mouth hanging open, he nodded and
backed away, almost knocking over a vacant chair at the next table.
Twenty minutes later, Sue and Liz entered
the Velvet Grange restaurant. Immediately, an impeccably dressed maître d appeared
at their side and without delay showed them to a table overlooking the park.
A
bottle of expensive champagne sat in a stainless steel cooler filled with ice
and, no sooner had they been seated, the champagne was opened and two flutes
filled. Sue gazed on, her mind now numb from two large glasses of wine and
everything that was happening. Riding a rollercoaster would not have had her
feeling more disorientated.
'To
change,’ Liz said, raising her glass.
Taking
hold of the other glass, Sue’s hand trembled as she raised it to meet Liz’s. ‘To
change,’ she repeated, and realized that if she carried on like this she would
be squiffy.
Placing
the glass to her lips, she surreptitiously studied her friend in an attempt to
see a hint of the old Liz she had known for years. She couldn’t, instead found
herself blurting out, 'I can’t wait any longer, and before you have me three
sheets to the wind, I think you’d better tell me what’s going on!’
Reaching
across the linen covered table, Liz took hold of Sue’s hand. 'We’ve been good
friends for more years than I can count, but sometimes things happen and you
can’t do anything about them, no matter how hard you try. And, believe you me,
I have tried.’ Averting her gaze to something over Sue’s shoulder, Liz
continued. ‘Maybe I should have said something months ago, but I didn't know
how and I didn’t want to spoil everything that was happening to you. I’ve
watched you change from a quiet, shy, miserable woman to a slim and beautiful
confident person. I love the new you. It’s just great.’
Sue
listened to her friend’s words and wished Michael could see what Liz saw in her.
Though he had muttered something about a surprise as he had headed out the door,
in his usual rush, for the office that morning.
‘You
see, six months ago Tony and I decided it was time to go our separate ways,’
Liz’s voice cut through her thoughts.
‘What?’
Sue blurted out.
‘Please,’
Liz said softly. ‘It was all amicable. Anyway, the divorce came through last
week.’
Sue
listened, astonished, as she sipped on her bubbles and wondered what was coming
next.
‘As
you know, Tony was always out with some pretty girl. He thought I had no idea,
but of course I did. His latest fling was pregnant and he wanted to marry her but,
you see,’ Liz stared at Sue, then looked down before adding, ‘I’ve also found
someone else and what with Tony being wrapped up in his own world, he had absolutely
no idea.’
Breathless
with all she had heard, Sue stared at Liz. She opened her mouth to speak, but
nothing came out.
'Don't
worry, Sue, everything’s going to be just fine. I really couldn’t be happier.'
‘Oh
Liz, I don’t know what to say!’ Sue cried, finding her voice.
‘I
just hope you’ll be happy for me. That’s all I want...for you to be happy too,
to understand.’
A
lump of emotion rose in Sue’s throat. She’d had so much going on in her head
these last few months, she had hardly known what time of day it was let alone
what was going on right in front of her nose. Feeling she had neglected her
friend, Sue jumped up from her chair, hurried to the other side of the table
and wrapped her arms around her shoulders. ‘Of course I’m happy for you!’ Then
standing up, she laughed out loud. 'My God, when you want to change things, you
really go to town, don’t you?’
Liz
smiled and nodded. ‘Now,’ she said, reaching down and picking up a package the
size of a shoebox. ‘This is for you, from me.’
‘Goodness,’
Sue said, reaching over she took the box. She looked at the label and stifled a
chuckle. Happy Birthday, Sweetie xxx.
Gently she shook the box. ‘Don’t tell me it’s a brick from the top of the
chimney,’ she jested.
Liz
giggled. ‘The only thing I ask is that you don’t open it until you’re back at home.
Please?’
Looking crestfallen, Sue
nodded. ‘If you insist.’
An hour later and standing at the entrance
of the restaurant clutching the gift bag that held the present, Sue turned to
her friend. ‘Thank you again, I’ve no idea what it could be,’ she said,
jiggling the bag.
Liz
threw her arms around Sue and hugged her tightly. Several seconds passed before
she released her grip. ‘It’s the least I could give you,’ she said. ‘You
deserve it.’
Shocked
at such a show of affection, Sue opened her mouth to speak then thought better
of it. She’d had enough surprises. Adjusting her jacket, she couldn’t believe
she had been hugged; her friend had almost squeezed the life out of her! Never before
had Liz hugged her.
With
an emotional goodbye from Liz, Sue tucked her handbag under her left arm and
clutching the gift bag she retraced the steps she had taken earlier. As she reached
the car showroom, she stopped, thoughts of the sports car forgotten with all the
day’s revelations. Turning to the big window, Sue peered in and smiled. It was
still there. Now all she needed to do was find a way to buy it, she giggled to
herself as she tried to walk home in a soberly manner.
With
Liz’s words still spinning around in her head, Sue placed her the key in the lock
before pushing open the front door and stepping inside. After the hiatus of the
afternoon the house appeared silent and tranquil. Slipping her jacket off, she
dropped it over the coat rack and carried the gift bag down the hall. As soon
as she entered the spacious kitchen she saw it sitting on the table. ‘What a
coincidence,’ she said to the silent room and lifted the box from the gift bag,
Liz had given her.
Letting
the bag slip to the floor, Sue placed the box next to the one on the table. She
saw they were the same size and, even more startling, they were wrapped in the
same flowery gift paper. One gift tag read: Happy Birthday, Sweetie, the other:
Happy Birthday, Sue. She pulled out a chair and sat down, she looked from one
gift to the other. It was obvious that Michael and Liz had collaborated on a joint
surprise for her. No doubt, Liz had instigated it, she thought. Although
Michael rarely forgot her birthday, he wasn’t one for surprises. Even her
fortieth had passed with little more than a token gift from him. But this? This
was different. She’d had a little too much to drink and couldn’t stop the
excitement bubbling up inside her.
Keeping
her gaze on the colourful paper, Sue unwrapped Liz’s box and, opening the lid,
she gasped. With her breath coming in short bursts, she ripped open Michael’s
gift. The contents were the same. The only difference, Michael had added a
note.
Hello Sue, this is for you to buy something
special for your birthday. I’m afraid I won’t be celebrating it with you. You
see... Sue read the rest of the note and everything snapped into focus.
Michael had left her for Liz. She snorted as the understanding of what Liz had
been trying to tell her, her unusual behaviour, and the unexpected hug, sunk
in. My words, I must be so stupid! There she was trying to catch her husband’s
eye and all the time he only had eyes for a boring, utterly predictable woman.
She laughed out loud at the shock. Before her laughter subsided, tears spilt
down her face. Sobs built in her throat threatening to choke her. Shocked at
the betrayal she dropped to the floor. Leaning against one of the chairs she howled
and wept until her throat was sore and there were no more tears left. Eventually
she pushed herself back onto her feet and headed over to the sink, she turned
on the tap and splashed cold water over her face, then plucked the hand towel from
its hook and wiped it across her cheeks. Flinging the damp towel down on the
side, she strode over to where both boxes sat. Staring down at their contents
she could hardly believe that each was filled with bank notes. A sardonic burst
of mirth escaped her lips and echoed around the room. ‘How cruel life can be,’
she said, taking handfuls of the crisp notes and sprinkling them over the table
and floor like confetti.
Four days had passed since the shoebox day and Michael had not been off
the phone. If he wasn’t saying he was sorry, he was hinting he had made a rash
decision in leaving her. Sue was quite sure he was sorry and that he had made a rash decision or, in other words, a big mistake, but she was going
to let him stew before she would utter one word to let him know what a first
class fool he was. In the meantime, she had an appointment to go to.
As
if it were déjà vu, Sue hurried along the tree-lined avenue and slowed only as
she approached Benson’s. Taking a deep breath, she peered through the showroom
window and her heart skipped a beat at the sight of the sexy red car. Feeling
her face flush with excitement, she pushed open the door and was immediately met
by Mr. Benson, a tall, grey haired gentleman dressed in a dark three piece
suit.
‘Good
Morning, Mrs. Potter, I’ve been waiting for you,’ he said, a smile filling his
face and making him appear younger than his grey hair suggested. ‘Come on
through, everything is ready for you.’
Sue
followed, and within moments she was standing in front of the source of her
daydreams. ‘May I sit in it?’ she asked, nerves making the palms of her hands
sweat.
‘Of
course! How else will you know if it’s for you?’ he responded, pulling open the
door with a flourish.
Taking
in the redolence of the car’s newness, Sue gingerly slipped into the cream leather
seat. Taking hold of the steering wheel she gripped it tightly and gazed through
the windscreen. In her mind she was already driving down the road and turning
into her gravel drive just as Michael was arriving to collect the rest of his
clothes. Her eyes shone as she imagined the look on his face when he understood
what she had bought with all the money. Yes, he would notice her then.
‘What
do you think?’ Mr. Benson asked, bringing Sue out of her revere.
‘It’s
beautiful,’ she said, climbing out of the seat. ‘I could see myself driving a
car like this.
‘A
real eye catcher,’ he added, as he gently tapped the bonnet.
‘Oh,
yes it is,’ she answered, still unsure she was doing the right thing. It was
one thing letting Michael sweat, but another to rub salt into his wounds.
‘I
could take you out for a spin in it if you like?’ he suggested. ‘I promise you
wouldn’t want it back in the showroom after such an exhilarating drive.’
Seeing
her husband’s face in her mind’s eye, Sue looked at Mr. Benson and, with a rush
of confidence, gushed, ‘Why not?’ She knew that if she were to ever forgive
Michael for his mistake, and for
their marriage to work, she would try never to mention his infidelity, but with
such a daily reminder sitting on the drive, she wouldn’t have to utter a single
word.
The
end
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